Talk about anything here.
Thats why we couldnt start a new page, duh Cause you were gone.
ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!
J/K...
"Human beings are a disease, and we are the cure"
Smiley Contest!
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I WIN
hahahaha
So...
Couple of failed smilies in there Morph.
who are you. you have a similar avatar to someone else I know
I'm Alpha_003_Snipe, as you may have guessed.
"The new Alpha_003_Snipe."
woaaah
welcome back!
Did you know that a single missile for a Javelin anti-tank guided missile launcher will set you back $40,000?
That's about a third of the price for the launcher itself!
Missiles: The most expensive bang for the buck you can get. That's why the weapon industry claims it's the best thing ever.
(Missiles, especially large rapid-fire batteries, seem to be based on the concept that the launchers will be destroyed quickly, so it's best to make the launchers as cheap as possible, while the ammo is expensive. That was true for a WWIII scenario, but not so true in, say, Iraq or Afghanistan.).
With that said, missiles are definitely best for some tasks. But it sure makes live-fire training expensive...
On a completely different subject - 272 pages? What the heck have you been discussing?? And no, I'm not going to wade through THAT book.
Welcome to the chatroom, where 272 pages can only be full of drivel.
Wow!
They were some intelligent conversations(semi) here and there.
When the Chatroom was in its prime we discussed video games, economy, the life of a formerly emo-kid. We convicted a guy of being a schizo and we were right.
Ah the Chatroom. A mere shell of its former self
So, hello everyone. I've been away for a few days now, and that is because my computer broke down, sort of
My motherboard had "cancer", and was slowly dying. Friday 29 of October was its last day that it would function. Of course, I didnt know that, until Saturday, when I woke up and attempted to turn on my PC. Trust me, I've through a living hell the past few days , and I am glad that I got my PC up and running, FINALLY
Thank god that I found a decent socket 775/DDR2 MOBO Otherwise I'd be stuck with a G41 MOBO until I had enough money to do a full scale upgrade on my computer OMGWTF Intel G41!!!! Oh nevermind that
And to top that, I think, (although not quite sure yet, because I just logged in to the forums), that I got banned from the Demigod forums, for that link to the porn site I posted in the Ban game. I mean, come on, it was a freaking link, and I put a warning that no underage people should click this link! That, or the Demigod forums are under maintenance or something. I am posting from the main Stardock forums now, which isnt too bad I guess. Oh well, shouldnt have posted the link, but I DID NOT know that I can get banned for that ....I apologize to everyone for this. I know this isnt the place to post links to porn sites. Sorry again
Anyway, how's everyone? And why isnt Xer07 here talking about Mishayla and Hannah?
Yep. That happens when you post smileys one next to another
OMG! I would have never guessed! ......*Ahem*obvious avatar*Ahem*.....
We have discussed nearly everything. Like the OP says, "Talk about anything here".
Or like Altaux said: "When the Chatroom was in its prime we discussed video games, economy, the life of a formerly emo-kid. We convicted a guy of being a schizo and we were right."
P.S. In short, I'm not doing too well
Morph Pacov wanted you to see this thread and see if you could show up http://forums.demigodthegame.com/399728/#2816640
Life
has
been
hell.
Allow me to break down the past two weeks or so:
Event: Hannah continues to flirt with me, and my friend Grant has relationship issuesResult: I start to consider myself lucky, maybe even gifted.
Event: My 16th Birthday on the 28th.Result: Nothing notable
Event: Halloween NightResult: Got closer to Liz and Mish, but had more communication issues at home.
Event: Grant's relationship issues worsen, Hannah starts to become depressedResult: I start to get depressed myself *See music below for an idea of how emo I've reverted/become*
Event: Hannah gets a boyfriend on top of her girlfriendResult: Less flirting with me, she seems more depressed
Event: Mishayla and I are seated next to one another in EnglishResult: Tickle Fights.
Event: Kids fight on the bus, Sam (a younger girl friend of mine) starts to consult me more about her relationship issues, Grant's relationship issues remain unchangedResult: I start to break away from society more *Again, see music*
Event: Hannah's sexuality is questioned (She claimed to be a lesbian, but now she has a bf) by me and Mish, she gets defensive. She also tells me and Mish that she doesn't care for either of her two partners, she's merely using them to pass the time.Result: Hannah and I become still more depressed, I attempt to find out the cause of her depression and alleviate it.
Event: My insomnia returns.Result: I'm on here and playing RPG's more, I also run on adrenaline during the later hours of the school day
Event: Me and Mishayla exchange our first "I love you's"Result: A ray of sunshine penetrating the cloud that hangs over me.
Event: Hannah tells me how badly she was hurt by Mishayla breaking up with her, that the two proclaimed their love for one another, and that they even told one another they'd be getting married together (Their plan was to get married, save money, then move to Sweden where the Government provides almost everything with their cradle to the grave system)Result: Guilt, sympathy, and curiosity as to why she'd tell this to me.
Event: Hannah tells me she contemplates suicideResult: About 2 1/2 hours of me and her going back and forth about why, and why not. I won, as exhausting and depressing at it was, by telling her that she hasn't yet begun to live her life, and that High School will be nothing like the real world, so at least give the world a chance before you give it all away. I also conclude that Hannah trusts nobody but me, and cares for nobody but me and 2 other people (I told her that suicide would leave behind pain in the people who cared for her. She scoffed and said 3 people, that's all?).
Event: Mishayla is considering taking me away this weekend for the movies and maybe dinner to celebrate my birthday since Halloween weekend was packed.Prediction: I'll have to pass on it somehow, at least the dinner part, my depression has killed my appetite completely and I don't want to worry her.
Music Genre: Emo/Rock/Alt.Songs: 3
Track 1: Dead by Sunrise - In the Darkness
Track 2: Stone Sour - Say You'll Haunt Me
Track 3: Rise Against - All the Good left Undone
Xer0 -
I have a nasty cold (trust me its not pretty), but I cant stay in today to recover. Too many things/obligations to attend to
Oh well, it could be worse. At least my computer runs fine
So, I figured, Xer07 is on the Chatroom, only when he has real life issues or seeking advice. I wonder, would you say hello to us here in the Chatroom, if your life was perfect? I think not. Then again, if MY life was perfect, I wouldnt be here, probably
@Xer07: I'm gonna say something I've been meaning to ask you for a long time, and then I am gonna proceed in giving you advice:
Each time you tell us about your RL issues here, and I respond in giving you advice and/or my opinion on your personal matters, do I actually help you in any way? Or do I waste my time?
Tell me, so that I know not to waste both yours and my time (no offense).
Ok here it goes:
I thought you didnt care too much about Grant. I must be mistaken.
Sweet Sixteen!! Just kidding.....
Got closer to your FRIEND Liz? What does that have to do with Mish? Come on, your GF should be more important than your friend
People are being called "emo", because they call themselves "emo". Truth is, that there is no such thing. It is another form of racism in this world. Dont let me get started on this one. Well, if you cant help Grant in any way, why do you worry so much?
Wait what?? You didnt mention that Hannah has a GF. And if she has a GF and a BF, then why the hell does she continue flirting with you?
Result: Hannah and I become still more depressed, I attempt to find out the cause of her depression and alleviate it.
Event: That sounds pretty evil of her (Hannah), to say the least. That girl has some serious issues.
Result: It seems like there's a connection between your depression, and Hannah's. As if you are affected by the happiness/sadness of the people around you. You CANT fix the whole damn world Xer07. Wake up, not everyone can be happy. Accept it. Oh and, watch the movie "The Butterfly Effect". Its meaning is invaluable.
Result: I'm on here and playing RPG's more, I also run on adrenaline during the later hours of the school day
Event: Of course it does. Its psychological.
Result: You mean, taking adrenaline pills and stuff?? .....why?
I think that should be enough to make you happy. Your relationship with Mish is getting better and better, and if neither of you screw up, then you might end up growing old together. But no. Xere07 is a Superhero (rhymes FTW ), and he NEEDS to fix the whole world. Good luck with that.
It almost seems like an attempt to scare and/or warn you. If she IS trying to scare you, that would be very mean of her. But maybe its just a way of saying: "Look how badly I've been hurt. I need you to understand me. I'm opening up."
I dunno, its hard to tell
Event: Thats just....not good. She needs to see an expert on that matter (psychologist, psychiatrist, anyone), not kidding.
Result: It was nice of you to convince her otherwise, but these thoughts dont temp to get out of one's mind easily. She'll think about suicide again, I can tell you that. Dont let your guard down, be alert. Oh and, if you could also convince her to see an expert, that would be great.
Btw, High School is exactly like the real world. The only difference is, that when you are done with High School, College, and all that, YOU are different, not the world. You're older, which means you're more mature, grown up, and usually calmer and collected. Actually, I'd say that High School is a little better than the real world. The real world is worse.
Dont let all these things get you down, and out of the mood. Just pay more attention to YOUR life, your issues (if you have any), and your relationship with Mish. Yes, I am telling you to try to be a little selfish, again
Get your spirit up, and be glad with what you have. Dont pass on it, go out with your GF (especially considering that she does all this for you, since you are celebrating your B-day), be happy, have fun. Isnt tickling one another so fun? Do that. Btw, it isnt very wise to have secrets from her (Mish), but whatever. I see your point though.
Rise Against is pretty awesome, IMO
EDIT: Nevermind, I can post in the Demigod forums now.
Gonna check it out.
I guess in retrospect most of this could be avoided if I could just get over my alleged "Messiah Complex".
1. If my life was perfect, as I would define it, I would probably be too preoccupied to stop by for a nice chat. If me coming here just to talk about my issues bugs you, I'll stop by later to just plain chat. Sorry for being such a wet blanket.
2. I do take your advice, to some extent, and mix it with what I think I should do, but listening to you is mostly my method of confirming my suspicions or curiosity, since your viewpoint is almost entirely 3rd person.
3. I don't care too much about Grant, tbh, however, he came to me for help and I can't say no to a friend, former or current, in need.
4. In this cold and unforgiving world of ours, friends are hard to come by. I try to keep mine close.
5. I just call myself emo because that's the generally accepted and understood term for dark and antisocial.
6. The primary reason I want people around me to be happy is to prove that I'm better than my father before me, an uncaring selfish man who left me before I was born. My happiness has become intermixed with that of the general community, resulting in me becoming a center of dramatic attention, (My younger friends jokingly call me Dr. Phil) I won't bother asking why changing the world into a better place is impossible, but I will state that I remain selfless for fear of becoming selfish. If the world can be changed, I want to be the one to change it. If it cannot, then I can at least be remembered for trying.
7. No, I mean that my adrenaline actually starts to kick in as though I just fell down a flight of stairs or got into a fight.
8. The world I live in is like a house of cards, and unfortunatley, Hannah's card is somewhere close to the base. If Mishayla should find out about Hannah's most recent actions, she too will feel guilty about it.
9. no, I meant the whole living with your parents and being forced to interact with groups of misunderstanding people while in school, her two biggest issues. She has a therapist, at least she used to, and again; she's on meds for depression.
10. Meh. To be completely honest: I put out all this energy towards selfless acts to exhaust myself so that I don't become self-centered and selfish. I have a great fear of becoming a malicious, harmful, uncaring person, but at the same time I also feel a lust to become the same person, something that exaggerates my fear of such. The me I envision when I think of acting towards myself cares only about two things: Carving out a name for myself in textbooks, and bringing down those who get in my way of doing so. I would care very little about interpersonal relationships, and I can already feel that this part of me is starting to question why I love Mishayla.
I actually thought Stone Sour was the best of the 3 songs, tbh.
Xer0 \^/
1. No, it doesnt bug me at all. I was just pointing it out. In fact, you help in keeping the Chatroom alive.
2. Ok, good to know that my advice helps somehow. Sorry, but I had to ask, right? I'm really glad to hear that my viewpoint is mostly in 3rd person, because thats my intention. I always try to leave the "If I were you, I would...." or "dont do this" out of my replies. Sometimes I just cant help it though.
3. Thats understandable. I assume that he isnt exactly....your "best" friend, is that correct?
4. Fair enough. I was just checking to see that you arent mixing your feelings for Mish, with your feelings for someone else, if any. In short, I was just making sure that you see Liz as a friend, because the way you said it, it sounded like you had feelings for both. (Got closer to Liz and Mish....)
5. I know you do. I was trying to say that "emo" as a term, is not only wrong, but also kinda racist. Again, dont let me get started on this.
6. Thats very noble of you Xer07. But you see, its all about choice. If you choose to be selfless at times, (when a friend is in need, or doing a good deed), but you generally are what can be considered as "normal" (neither selfless nor selfish), thats not such a bad thing, is it?
The thing is, that you CANT change the world, but I am sure you already know that.
I cant tell you that you shouldnt at least try to make a difference. I cant tell you something wise, like "The purpose of man in life is....". I cant tell you who you are, or what you will become in the future. But I CAN tell you who you choose to be, at least from what you say here in the Chatroom.
And you choose to be this holy martyr of a man, who lets himself suffer, to make other people happy. At least thats where you're headed.
"Choice....the problem is choice." - Neo
I understand that you are trying really hard, to remain as selfless as you can be, in fear of becoming selfish. This is a common way of dealing with a certain fear, that we humans do it all the time. (example) A very large and powerful company, will do everything to remain at the top, in fear of falling to the bottom, and eventually go bankrupt. You stay on 1 side, in order to avoid going to the other. Usually, choosing the middle road, is the best way to go, but....I assure you, that road has many surprises....
Oh enough of that. I am confusing you, arent I?
Bottom line is, that you need to figure out everything on your own. If I could tell you what to do, and I assured you that if you did what I told you, everyone including yourself would be happy, would you do it? No, you wouldnt. You need to understand on your own, figure things out.
"I can only show you the door....but you're the one that has to go through it." - Morpheas
Ah....the Matrix....there's so much wisdom and truth in that movie...
7. Hmm....and why do you think that happens?
8. I'm not sure I get the house of cards reference, but from what I understand, if Mish founds out how much she hurt Hannah by leaving her, making her feel miserable and all that (considering suicide), she will feel guilty?
9. Hmm, you do know that the meds for depression (and any psych meds) are only covering an open bleeding wound with a patch, right?? The wounds need to heal on their own, with time. The meds are only temporarily reduce or stop the bleeding. They cant heal any wounds. (All being metaphorical of course)
10. I understand this fear of yours. I already said too much in #6. And that "lust" you are talking about, is only your desire to actually start caring about yourself, focus on your personal desires and satisfy your needs, which is something completely natural. If you actually said, that you feel completely 100% selfless and you only care about others, then I'd call you a big fat liar. Its impossible to say the least.
I didnt get that....at all: "Carving out a name for myself in textbooks" I know what the words mean, but....it must be something metaphorical as I dont get it
There is no "why" in your love for Mishayla. I have tried really hard to explain many things about true love, but I have failed miserably. But all I know is, that "why" is the wrong question to ask yourself. You didnt choose this, you CANT choose who you fall in love with. Even if you try really hard, it still might not happen. So the right question to ask, would be "how", not "why".
Or maybe you are talking about something else, and I just FAIL to interpret it.
My personal opinion: Sometime in the future, all that pressure you put on yourself, "I have to be selfless", "I have to be nice and honest", "I have to be unlike my father", and all that, will probably cause a burst in the future. I mean a psychological burst of suppressed feelings/emotions or desires. You cant just put all that pressure on yourself, suppress all these feelings, put such a heavy burden on your shoulders, and expect nothing bad to happen.
You are....what, 16 years old? Gosh, you're so young and yet so heavily burdened You're only human, Xer07. How much more you can take?
For the love of all that is Unholy, where did Morph and Xer0 LEARN TO WRITE THESE MASSIVE POSTS???
Sorry, I've already reached my reading quota for today and cannot read them.
-Twilight Storm | Will Make you a Knight in Kingdoms of Camelot if you play...
(Being a Knight has no effect on your gameplay though...so it's a moot reward...)
Excuse me? I was always able to write long posts, I just usually try to avoid doing so. I dont like wasting my time, as well as the reader's time. Do I need to remind you of some flame wars back when Skidi was around?
I would like to be a Dark Knight, but any other 'Knighthood' than this would be unacceptable.
Glad you stopped by to say hello, though
Oh, I remember the flame wars, we roasted many the marshmallow in those days...
And I may or may not be rejoining the Chatroom as a regular since it's not as bad as my (Admitedly bad) Ghosting led me to believe, seems like the whole gang is still around.
And sorry, Knighthood is just your plain, ordinary Knight.
To Xer0: You at least have a KoC account, which stat is your favorite? Combat, Politics, Intelligence, or Resourcefulness?
-Twilight Storm | Xer0 must answer or become the Bard of Knights...
woah long posts.
really I read both your posts and I would say let your conscience be your guide, but at the same time don't over exhaust your self trying to be a better man that your father.
Honestly I would love to chime in more often and honestly I have had some similar experiences to this. So believe me when I say probably the best thing to do is to seek some professional help. As one guy shouldn't heap all these emotional worries on his self.
Ghost!!! I shall slay though
Actually Callen, since I don't have a facebook (my mother's fault) I don't have a KoC account either. Sorry.
Morph:
Hannah is bipolar as it turns out, she goes from grinding depression to uncontrollable mania, something I was happy yet unenthused to see today... she is apparently extra flirty while in Mania, as she's started playing butt-tag with me (however, we are limited to the use of our feet, since Mish would rip me a new one otherwise) and has proclaimed herself the "boss of me" when it comes to decisions I have to make.
Moving on... I saw The Nightmare before Christmas for the first time in about 11 years today, and I realized that I"m just like Jack. The well-being of the community came first, and he was never satisfied unless he was at him maximum potential. I hit the revelation that I shouldn't be focusing on achieving greater things until I've savored, appreciated, and perfected what I already have. So that'll keep me off my changing the world phase for a while.
Apparently the more miserable I am, the more attractive I am as a result... I awoke from a nap in Chemistry to find at least 4 girls looking at me, and again in Psychology to find 2 girls who had moved from the other side of the room to sit next to me and were talking about having me take part in some activity of theirs (one of them had actually rubbed my hair at some point shortly after I awoke). Mish and Hannah also seem to be extra flirty recently, and even casual friends such as Miranda and Liz are taking notice of me (Liz will attempt to poke my sides in the hallway, or grab my hands, and Miranda is just... odd, she punches me in the arm and abs whenever I make her laugh)
Ok, I guess you could say I'm questioning the long-term benefits and short-term gains of being in a relationship with her. Personally, I think we're doing great and I see no current reason for us to be apart, except for that we're both competitive and neither of us is willing to claim leadership over the relationship.
All in all, an improvement in almost all fronts, I can also tell my depression is fading, because I'm getting more aggressive than normal, as usual when I recover.
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